Kathleen McCall:
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2004-09-20 - 5:56 a.m.

Random Things

Some of you may know I'm kind of having relationship problems these days.

I think it probably isn't good self-care to be with someone who really doesn't have any time or appreciation for you. Who just kind of coasts and lets you do all the giving. Even financially - when they know your financial status, and they still kind of expect that you'll pay for everything. Who you can't even ask for help or even a little attention because they're just too busy with their own stuff, and you end up sorry you asked in the first place because it's obviously an imposition.

And then they expect you to drive them to school.

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I like everything about tuna except one thing: I want my food to stop smelling after I've eaten it. Tuna for lunch and I'm in the bathroom again with the nail brush half an hour later. Or I'm standing in the middle of the kitchen frothing at the mouth: "I rinsed the can and took it out to the dumpster! I scrubbed and bleached the cutting board, boiled the utensils, swabbed down the counter and the walls and the floor! What more can I do?!" I'm Lady MacTuna.

I don't cook lamb at home, either.

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I'm really pissed off because they appear to have discontinued my deodorant. I can't figure this out. They made all new ones with different scents. I don't WANT to smell like deodorant. I want to smell like Unscented. Why do they make all new ones? Are they going to sell more? How can one buy MORE deodorant? I just kind of get a new one when the old one runs out, don't you? I don't get all excited about a new scent and start rubbing it all over my body so I can buy another one sooner. And they're not going to capture the people who weren't buying any before, either. I know some of those people, and believe me, they won't be seduced by your Ocean Mist bullshit.

So now I have some godawful scented stuff, and I ought to throw it away and try some other brand, but I'm p.o.'d about my four bucks and I won't throw it away. I'm just going to grouse for a few months. Or maybe I'll just rub it all over my body every day for a week and use it up that way.

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Do you get too tired to go to bed? I am. Just watching the clock tick, and I know I have to get up in the morning so I really need to go to bed, but it's too much work. I have to wash my face and take vitamins and brush my teeth and put my clothes in the hamper and shut the windows and lock the doors and put on jammies (I know I have the order all mixed up and no, I do not come out naked to shut the windows. Well, sometimes.) I'm such a bum. Too lazy to go to bed.

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I had a nice hour with my kids tonight. I don't know why. I picked up Younger Daughter at her dance at school and brought her home and the three of us kind of a ate a late dinner together and kind of not, and we were talking about how you had to shower after gym when I was in school and how you don't any more and some other stuff, and I don't know why, but it was nice. We haven't had enough nice together in a long time. Thank you, God.

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There's a business in my town that I keep noticing because they have a Hummer (now don't get me started) with the name and logo on the side: Heritage Bail Bonds. That's right. A fine old family tradition, jail.

I don't think most people are sidetracked by this kind of stuff as easily as I am.

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I got a nice letter last week from a gentleman who said I was the only net resource on car months, and did I have any solutions? It reminded me of the man who found me by googling for furnace filters and stayed to read many pages and write me a note that he enjoyed Occasional Muse. I notice I continue to be an internet resource for mouth soaping and backseat sex, although flowered panties and eskimo porn seem to have fallen off. (This will probably bring them back.) And today I noticed a very sweet one - "how + to + ask + a + girl + to + homecoming + dance." I don't think I had much help for that. Bless your little geek heart, boy. I hope she says yes, but if she doesn't, you just go right on and ask someone else.

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